One of my ongoing struggles in this life is and has been patience. Living in the moment. The grief journey presents endless opportunities to practice patience - healing is not something one can force. It is the proverbial steps forward, steps back scenario.
"How long will it take?" "Are we there yet?" "When I get the promotion..." "When I finish the house..." "When I lose 5 pounds..." And on, and on, and on.
Intentionality and mindfulness are the bedrock of patience. Impatience robs today of meaning. It's tough to enjoy the now when one is obsessing over a future situation -- a thing, a person, a reality whose time has not yet come and may never.
Patience - working on living here in each moment.