Thursday, April 20, 2006

Intention and Action

I have made a gigantic leap forward in this journey. It is not "over" - I am not "healed" - however, I have moved to a different seat on the bus. On the plane ride home from Florida, I made a list in my little moleskine - projects, tasks, activities - big and small. Here is a portion of the list:
  • Rearrange and organize office
  • New desk
  • Make a decision on reconfiguration of our old master bedroom
  • Make my colonoscopy appointment
  • Make my bone density appointment
  • Determine date to go to home to Calfornia to see my mother
  • Do cardio and resistence training 6 days a week
  • Change my eating plan to include 5-6 small meals per day
  • Plan art projects
I have done and am doing all of the above.

Other things on the list remaining to be tackled:
  • Make mammogram appointment
  • Organize laundry room
  • Sort through and organize the downstairs storage room (memories to behold)
  • Finish organizing the garage (derailed with winter's cold)
  • Load mindfulness meditation CD's onto Powerbook
  • Apply for my passport
  • Make decisons about the remainder of Tom's clothing still hanging in his closet
Thoughts determine what you want - ACTION determines what you get. There is one more big thing on my list but that is for sharing on another day very soon. I am clear, confident, humbled, grateful and future focused.


  1. Suzann,
    I don't know if this little gem is original to you but it really hit home with me: Thoughts determine what you want...action determines what you get! Thanks so much for that reminder. You sound so wonderful!

  2. It all sounds wonderful Suzann...and so do you. I have some of those very same "to-do's" on my list. Why do I have the feeling you're following through a little better than I am? Congrats!

  3. Joy - I am very far ahead of you on the timeline of the grief journey - I think you are doing wonderfully at this point. The one thing I know is there is no right or wrong way to do this journey except to be gentle with ourselves.

  4. Impressive! And what a good idea to post your to-do list on your blog! ;)