I have been in stores in the last couple of days to get things for the duplex and for the retreat we are doing today for a client ---- Target was like "Valentine World" --- I had momentary "store" pangs of missing my baby darling. Not like times last year when I would just leave my cart and go to my car and cry -- but the sudden and unexpected knife cut to the heart of longing for him.
Last night as I got in bed to read - with the big pillow in the empty space beside me, I had a momentary flash of how far I have come to find comfort and solace in my own company and the new life I am building.
So here I am climbing out of my chasm of despair and carrying my lessons learned with me - now it is making meaning out of life's sudden destruction and the journey that is thrust upon one.
You're doing good my friend...you are going through the hard year right now...the part where the shock is wearing off and the reality of the loss is becoming a way of life.
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