I am very excited. For the past six months, another widow and I have been planning a widow/widower gathering in Minnesota. We have 20 people arriving from all around the country beginning tomorrow until Sunday afternoon. We will have over 25 in attendance with the Minnesotans. All the folks who are attending are from the online grief support group - GROWW.
With the exception of Tigger, who is the co-chair with me, I have not met any of the people who are arriving - yet I feel as if they are friends. It will be wonderful to put faces with names and to sit with others who walk the widowed road.
As a new widow, GROWW saved my sanity. I signed on to the chatroom just about every night for months. Some nights all I could do was read what was being written and sob into my keyboard. GROWW folks reached across the gulf and held me close when I did not know what to do next. They were the ones who told me that I wasn't going insane - I was grieving and all those horrific thoughts, inability to concentrate, raw pain, disconnection, confusion, and on and on and on - were normal to the territory. They told me - "it will get better, even if you don't think it will." And they were correct.
I am looking forward to holding them close this weekend in gratitude.