Tuesday, March 01, 2011

After Changes Upon Changes

I do not know what lies just ahead. I have blogged that I believed the man who I have been sharing my life experiences with the past seven months was here in my life for awhile. It appears I was correct.

We care deeply for one another - we have fun and laugh incessantly. We have made some wonderful memories. We hold hands and hug and kiss a million times a day when we are together. We do the simple things of life that are so important and we have fun doing so. It appears that it all is about to be just that - wonderful memories.

Am I sad? Of course! Will I live? Absolutely. Once you have had your heart abruptly torn out, there is little that can happen to bring you down for long.

As I wrote in the beginning - I don't know what the next steps are between us. We will be friends - but if this moves forward in this manner then we will not see one another for a bit - I can't change channels that fast.

Yesterday, I stayed home and stayed in bed, reading, reflecting and yes, shedding a few tears. He and I talked on the phone several times. Today, he still sent me his early morning text - we talked at 5:30 am like we do everyday. Today - the sun is shining. I am up and ready to go to work. Baby steps, baby steps, baby steps into my future. That is all any of us can do. Namaste.

8 comments:

  1. I am sorry to hear of your sadness. If you want to talk, I am here *hugs*

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  2. Suzann ..... the timing of our lives leaves me at a loss for words. Except that I'm so sorry. For both of us.

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  3. I'm sorry that you are going through this sad time Suzann...but you will get through it and continue to blossom my friend....Hugs and love to you... ~Joy

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  4. Friend, warm hugs to you today. I'm sorry.

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  5. Not everything works out the way we might hope it to.... sometimes life takes a strange turn in the opposite direction, but the path sometimes takes us to a new horizon which is better than the one we originally set our eyes on.

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  6. I was surprised when I read your comments about this a while back and wondered what it was about. I am sorry you are feeling the loss of a special connection that brought lots of fun and joy. Protecting your vulnerable self is smart. The Campbell quote is sooo true. Your special partner will reveal himself in his own good time, and I hope HE LIVES NEXT DOOR TO ME!

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