Friday, October 09, 2009
Changes Upon Changes
I have been reorganizing my house - that has required that I look through many things - boxes of photos, vacation mementos, silly little gifts tucked into the corner of a drawer, theater tickets safely hidden in a jewelry stand --- all the things that bring Tom so close inside my heart.
Yes, some of the reorganizing is like a new wind blowing through the house and some of it evokes memories so vivid that they lacerate my heart. Forget the new wind blowing for a minute.
Next month will be five years since his Angel Day - five years, one half of a decade. Yes, I know he is dead - that's right he is dead.
All I can say tonight is --- is I want MY husband back.