My life has been a bit difficult recently as I have been suffering almost daily migraines - not always the headache but certainly the aura. After a couple of months, your brain gets weary.
I rarely have had any uncontrolled migraine episodes as I am able to control them using bio-feedback. I had one uncontollable episode in 1994 and one in 2011, in both instances a month on a beta-blocker and I was good to go. I am now beginning the third month and yes, my poor brain is tired.
And yet, I am so blessed. During this time, I have forgotten to pause and think about how grateful I am for so many things in my life. One huge gratitude: I had a Cranial MRI a week ago (the neuro doc just wanted a look to be sure) and it was "normal". That's a thing of beauty and something to be very thankful for -- headache, yes - strange things growing in brain, no!
I am grateful for my business partner, J, who after almost ten years is my family. Our values, our approach to work and life, our dreams for the future mesh so well. He is a joy and blessing to my life.
My circle of friends who I adore and who love me in return are so dear to me, thank you for unconditional love. My sister, Joan and the fact that we now live in the same city, only three blocks apart.
My home. My little townhouse with the big backyard, the vegetable gardens, the patio and deck for relaxing in the sun or eating an alfresco meal and the 100+ year old cottonwood tree that stands sentinel over all. How fortunate I am to live here - 18 years, the longest I have ever lived anywhere in my life.
I am thankful for my little cat, Miss Kitty, purring right beside me as I write this - I love her.
The Grief Project, I am so grateful to be able to be a part of something that holds out the hand of hope and companionship to those who walk the difficult Widowed Road.
I have never really had health problems - a year or so ago the doctor thought I had a mild stroke, it turned out to be the migraine stuff not a stroke (I am grateful for that). I had surgery in 1995 but that was over in a heartbeat. Even with all the things that are going on now, I am fortunate to be as healthy and strong as I am. I am grateful for my health and for this physical body that has carried me and continues to carry me these many miles.
I am a blessed woman and I am humbled at how much love I have in my life. Remembering today to express my gratitude makes me ever more grateful for life.
Migraines come from many sources but mine are connected to my neck. I learned about them when I was pregnant with my first baby and had one which panicked me as it did feel like something catastrophic with the aura, headache and some numbness on one side. I went to the doctors and finally tried a chiropractor-- wonderful results as he triggered one that first day but began to realign my spine with the treatment. Since then, whenever I start to get them, I visit my osteopath who is great at the alignments and not very expensive. Usually one treatment does the trick but sometimes more. If you haven't tried chiropractors or osteopaths, it's worth a try as one never knows what is at the root of them but it can be the spine.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful post, my beautiful friend.
ReplyDeleteI, too, stand awash in gratitude at the life I lead. Humbled by the goodness and beauty of it all.