OK, OK - I'll bet you thought I had taken a slow boat to another continent. Well, in some ways I did. I have so many things to write about - the one I want to share tonight is that I am in love. Yes, that's right, the "L" word. I also am loved. That's right the "L" word. It is amazing.
The guy and I have walked a path the last 15 months - singly, together - whatever. We have done the dance - the dance in happy; the dance in the rain - the dance that is scared beyond belief (we both know what it is like to lose the love of your life); the run forward - quick, run back.
Right now, we are in the vigil-time of the loss of our spouses - he on October 27 (14 years) - me on November 14 (7 years). We talk about it, cry together, comfort one another and give each other space to be lost in our memories. And through it all - we are here in the blessed here and now.
I have so many things I want to write - I hope each of you are well - I send my love. In my darkest hours I never thought the sun would shine again and I certainly never imagined that I would say the "L" word from the bottom of my heart.
Happy, Happy, Joy, Joy. One thing I know for sure - Tom wants me to be happy. There is truly much more to come.