Sunday, May 08, 2011

The Grief Project

Please visit our new website. The Grief Project. It is the dream of my heart and now it lives. I have walked with other widowed people for the last several years, it is my new life's work. This project is the formal part of that work. A call to action for those who wish to help. A safe place for those in pain. Please visit the website and let me know what you think.

Tonight I am in bed writing this on my IPad. I am having a bit of trouble sleeping. Tonight I miss Tom with an intensity that I have not felt in a long time. Tears. Longing. Anger that he is gone. Wishing for a life that vanished so long ago. Wishing for my husband who loved me to the bottom of his heart and told me so daily. Wishing for his shoulder to lay my head on, wishing for his hand to hold, wishing for his gentleness, his easy manner, his unconditional love. Even after six and a half years my pillow is wet with tears. I miss you honey - I miss you.


  1. Are you surprised by the tears?

    You have accomplished something great; you have begun something wonderful. Something that you would never even have imagined if Tom were still alive.

    Of course this landmark moment will bring the full force of his death back to you. You want nothing more than to say, "Look, Tom! Look what I did!" But you can't.

    And I am so sorry that you can't. We may know that their spirits are with us in the always and forever, but that does not take away the sharp edge of missing them in the here and now.

    I send you my love, dear, and wishes for a peaceful sleep.

  2. i can only echo what Alicia has said. what you have achieved with the Grief Project is part of his legacy, too, for what you do for others who grieve comes from being the person you are, the person Tom loves, and from the empathy and comfort you looked for at the beginning of your own journey. now you are giving it to others. peace.

  3. Suzann,
    I ditto the other 2 comments.
    This is wonderfully amazing.
    And a very, very good thing.
    Thank you.

  4. I did wonder if the tears would fall ... and fall hard. I was pretty sure they would. My darling Suzann, there is no greater gift than to give through your own pain. I love you and am holding you in my heart xxx

  5. Glad to see you've been able to launch your long-planned Grief Project. The site is most inviting and an ambitious undertaking from which many can benefit.