Juggling......

It has been way too long since I posted - way too long. I have been juggling a lot of things - new projects, catching up on professional reading, a huge fitness challenge that I embarked on about a month ago, time with friends (not as much a hermit as I have been the last few years) and busy with the things of daily living.

I have been working out at a really ferocious rate - increasing my exercise by at least 50%. For a bit my knees were really bothering me from doing so much high intensity interval cardio work on the treadmill. No more pain as now I have discovered the recumbent bike and it's much easier on these old knees. This week, in addition to 2 weight training sessions with Suzy and my cardio, I plan to do a Zumba class and a core training class, both at the YMCA.

I have much, much more to share with you. Some of my dear readers may remember that a few years ago I tried to start an initiative called, "The Grief Project" and I just couldn't do it then. I was too raw, too deep in my own bereavement. Now is the time.

The Grief Project is being initiated now. I will do a post this week with all the details. It is exciting and fulfilling a long held dream of mine. I will also blog soon about my fitness program and the challenge. It is an exciting mind, body and spirit endeavor.

Glad to be back at the blog = there is more to come.....

Living Progress

This blog is 31 months old. When I began to write here, it was without a thought that anyone else would ever read here. I was broken - the blog was a place to unload my heart so I didn't discorporate.

At that point, the tag line on my blog was, "when you're going through hell - keep going." Approximately one year ago, I changed it to, "walking through grief and loss one step at a time."

This morning, I changed it again. Please notice, I have not "reclaimed my life", that life - with all its hopes and dreams - is gone, it died with Tom. It takes a very long time to come to terms with that fact.

Until the day I die, I will have a profound sorrow for the loss of my mate AND the life we shared and dreamed together. However, that life and its aspirations cannot be acted upon. It is the past.

Today, I say very clearly and joyfully - I claim my life - Right here today, tomorrow and for the future.